OS in innermost CT: March 2010

Sunday, March 28, 2010

CUT!

5 Computer were using 1 512kbps line. LAG LAG LAG!

The lights turned off. But we're still playing laptop xP.

Messy table@.@

Originally we planned to discuss about graduation trip.

But all of them kept playing facebook. Including me.xP

Lazy LAzy LAZy LAZY.

All drunk @@.

Music playing.

Have a crazy night xP.

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You have gone.

Peacefully, Silently, Surreptitiously.

IDK when.But I can feel it.

Because i've no sadness and hapiness when looking on those things.

So dont pick up the 'Bad Romance' anymore thanks =).

But i will remember and seal all the memories, which we have together.

Sealed in a book. A book contain my tears before.

Tears dropped. Tears evaporated. Tears disappeared.

means I locked up my heart again.

So go on, go on and break my heart.

I'll be ok, there's nothing you can do to me.

There's ever gonna bury me.

So please don't do that to me again.

The wounds recovered.

But left a deep cut.Never gone.

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CONGRATULATION!!

Our Miss. Rachel got number 2 in her Ad-Lib speech Competition.

Come back and have a party and celebration =).

(os: only you. can fit in to the deep cut again. )

Friday, March 26, 2010

Sunday, March 21, 2010

=)

不是我不愛了.

而是我害怕.

想起那一秒的心動.

會引來那一秒的心痛.

朝琳說: 你轉身一瞬,我蕭條一生.

沒錯. 我沒因為你墮落.

因為我要保持一切.

等你回來.

我依然愛你.真的你呢?

"我為何肯等個舊人誰教我不甘心等到怕了都等

別顧忌尚有笨人在等待你" 衛蘭

傻孩子．

忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．

那些．都已是记忆．

缺失并不可怕．

可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．

你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．

付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．

绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．

那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．

开始新的习惯吧．

习惯．每天一个人生活．

习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．

习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．

你逃不掉．逃不掉的．

那么．就勇敢面对．现实．

现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．

勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．

这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．

这也是你．成长中的你．

这个你．正在逐渐死去．

新的你．即将重生．

找寻你的路．你的未来．

你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．

做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．

好．好．尽情发泄吧．

剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．

泄完了．就要振作．

看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．

还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．

所以．你并不孤独．

正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．

别哭．别再哭．

不值得．真的．不值得了．

把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．

开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．

做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．

生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．

别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．

你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．

现在的生活．不是你想要的．

为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．

给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜……

当某天，你被伤害，想起我。那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了……

因为那时的我，已经将你放低……

原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的……

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This article is partially copied from Priscilla's blog.

Perhaps it's another way for me to put down you.

Do you want me to do it?

If you don't want. I can cancel this.

And become a zhutou. Staring our memoris everynight.

Below the atmosphere. which missing you.

(os: i love you. can't stop )

Saturday, March 20, 2010

從前

剛和麗斯聊天.

突然想秀我以前的醜照.

哈哈. 別笑我.我也是有曾經.

這張是2007年年尾,參加Money And You.

在 EastWood Resort.拍的

這很醜我知道 xD

2008年1月1日在EverlyHotel廁所 =)

這是燙了頭髮後 . 有一點後悔.

那時候超黑 . >.<

應該看的出我在哪裡拍的. =___=

皮膚開始潰爛.(噁)

這個鳥巢髮型.這在船上拍的.

風超大 ~隔壁那位就是林聲琪小姐

在野柳.笑容僵硬.

這時候.應該是2007年年中.

去匯流的時候.在Imperial Hotel.

2007年,西瓜小姐.

她本人在中國上海.是吧?

我等著你回來~~

接下來就是陳思惠小姐

我知道你一定會罵我

不過我還是要放.

最後一次嘛.

記得一定要好好的.

不管遇見了甚麼人.

我會記得.我真的會記得.

加油啦.

:'-)

(os: 不許忘記我 :'(((( )

Friday, March 19, 2010

Holiday ii

While I was surfering web yesterday.

Suddenly i received Ahle's call.

said that tonight they had a gathering with Miss Tina.

My last year english teacher.

We like her. =)

Alice failed to join facebook.

Because the Confirmation Email was not sent into her mailbox.

after we tested several times.

Sherine ALWAYS chitchatchitchatchitchat.

Noisy lar you xDDD.

I decided to tuition there.

other please visit my album in facebook =)

ALBUM <--click here.

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I slept on 2am.

It's not weird but i needed to wake up in 7am.

yesterday I was so high.

idk what happened.

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Today have a mission.

So fish i felt.

so just *SKIPPPP*

Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra.(correct or not?)

Their performance really nice.

They performed 4 songs.

1. Carmen

2.Dance of Yao

3.Pirates of Carribean

4. A song in Harry Porter movie.(idk whats the name )

I had record the video but i think can't post.

due to their legal copyrights.

Let's go to support them in Dewan Suarah.20/3/2010

=).

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口上望涯嘆情稀

斯口引君日望兮

情意口郎還持矜

憶劇握口手繪心

終使晃意口慾波

但郎言傷舊口存

亦令者傷寢語口

for you =)

(os: do you remember? what is the date today ? =)

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Gatherings.

[17/3]

Was exciting.

Went out with those who just back from camp.

4days didn't meet them.

So gua jv you guys lar xD

After sent that 4 trouble guys.

We're finally can had our lunch.

in after three.

So HOT!@@

these are the pictures

She's motion is sooo exagerate.SOUND too xP

Sherine + Stephen + Ahle. new photoshooting pose.

Omg i look so fat :-(

Sheng!!!!buat facebook ar!

Don't know when they take @@

My glasses is looking camera but my eyes was on road.

They like this pic so much.

We were crazy.went to beach in 4pm.

Very hot.very very hot hot!!

The sun made my eye cant open.:x

Lastly..stephen was taking picture so he's not in.

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OK. showtime finish.

after that we're going to New World suites ,education fair.

Just <10 stalls there.

Many of then already had ambitions and directions.

I'm still like a stray sheep.HAIX.

but i'm going to choose XXXXXXXXX surreptitiously.

cause. i use to be like that xP.

OK. now i announce.

I decide to transfer school before but this failed.

affected by some reason.

I'm sorry that i cant tell.

So.I will finish my senior three here.

dont ask me anymore thanks =).

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I went to camp in school today.

I like these 3 photos.

thanks my DSC-TX1. =]]]

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HOW? HOW? HOW?

Even i made myself sooo busy.

But my brain is still thinking you.

What you said what you promised.

What you gave me.

haix..i know.

you wont touch anymore.

you wont care anymore.

you wont feel pity anymore.

But I hope.

I can give those i can give.

within the time,i am loving you.

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Bye my friend.

who accompany me 5years ++

I will remember you. Don't cry.ok?

add oil in ur study.

(os: sorry to those, she's still living in my heart.=(, i agree, friends is better than lover, but two is better than one.cheer up all!!)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

假期.

最近愛上這個pose xD

沒錯.假期生活超無聊!

不是我罷工.是每人要開工.>.<

昨天去找草叢琳 (按此可達她面子書)

吃午餐.繼續她的OL實錄.

發覺江濱餐廳的烤雞不是很好吃 :@

中了張罰單.忘記放固本啦!

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回家當兒接到任務通知.

完成任務後.竟然有個很吵的小姐

叫我重複任務.

閒著沒事做.

去參她們(Ah Ki, Doris, Sherine)

EXCUSE ME 時個不錯的名字 xP

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恭喜某位小姐考車pass了.

禮物慢點送上.

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過後和她們去載度假回來的3位小姐

6個人+3個大包

導致車上坡時數10km/h

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好的,繼續我的網路生活.

不知怎麼做天晚上肚子突然超餓.

某人記得你說的話啊啊啊啊啊! xD

(os: I gonna be sohai already.cause of my <3, dont scold me T.T)

Saturday, March 13, 2010

對不起,原諒我一天內發這麼多文章

早知道不說那些話.

早知道不翻回那些信息.

我的承諾.破了.

淚水湧向臉龐.

我只想要和你開心的談場戀愛.

1年的心動.要留去多少淚水,才能平復?

.

<心碎紀念>

21/2

Iyee captured my sei yong while i was driving.

I suddenly dropped in her blog.

any details about that night please visit

IYEE BLOGSPOT

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That day.

unforgottable.

With you guys.

My primary friends =].

KEEP in touch ya .

Misery Terminated.

WOOHOO....Exam finished.

These are our simple celebration photo. =)

Firstly, I would like to share my pictures to you.

These are taken on Sushi King.

Actually it is not very delicious.

RM 109.10 our ate.It's normal for 4 of us.

small stomach's person.

I was shocked when Ah Ki( the girls with big round earrings) told me that

she started to prepare since 3 hours ago.

I was sleeping lar.

SOMEONE replied my sms while I was preparing.

Late jor 1 day...

Mcflurry double up pls.thanks xP

She keep asking me to show her something.

ciu.....Don't want ler......

Miss Alice with me.I call her to join facebook since last year.

But she's lazy.>.<||

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These are Gan& Kiki photos.

Lazy to describe.*SKIP*

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After paid and loitering there.

We went MnG together.

But Ahki need to back :(

Drunk a little bit only.cause need to send Gan back.

This is the first time I sang in public area.

Sure after drunk.

陳曉東-比我幸福.(click for MV of this song)

The first song I sang.

We like this song very very much.

We were chitchatting inside.

Gan.Alice.Sheng.Sherine.Do you realise that they have same hairstyle.LOL

Sorry,I grabbed this photo from Penny (sheng's cousin) blog.

But it look funny.xP

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I watched Ladygaga and Beyonce's TELEPHONE. music video (click for link)

COOOOOOOL!They are COOL.

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Just now watched The Wolfman was on in Cinema.

Frienz dont invite me go please. :'(

I always trust for something.

I tried not to watch the thins about you these few days.

OK.I success.But you are still the one who I yearn when i wake up.

Still running in my mind.

The piece of LOVE.

I want to overlap with you again (dont think YELLOW.thanks)

I do need you.

When everynight i moody.

When everynoon i boring

When everytime i need a companion.

Come here.BABE

(OS:從來沒想過不能再和你牽手委屈時候沒有你陪著我心痛)

Thursday, March 11, 2010

含著淚の微笑

昨天讀書讀到無聊.

畫這個電話. se w705.

很多人用著.

你..人家要都沒有啊xP.

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昨天超緊張.

一直倒數知道成績的時數.

很遲才睡著,很早就彈起來.

知道成績了.對我說中等.

還是有不滿意的地方.

國文:差不多是這樣了啦

英文:第一次拿A,不過1119超爛

華文:我不滿意啦啊啊啊

數學&高數:差不多

道德:沒有道德的人拿到這樣的成績不錯了xP

物理:差不多

生物:差不多

化學:差不多

歷史:有點小失望

綜合科學:沒想到

成績報告完畢

每人心中都有一把尺,都不一樣長

我心中的尺,量出來的成績

是如此.我認命了

看到人家全A,很羨慕.

我知道我資質有限.

家人:我讓你們失望了.

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今天考物理.

考到亂七八糟

這還是頭一遭.

以前我少1分,都會耿耿於懷.

這次,我不了,因為我真的盡力了=(.

還好生物有補回.

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昨天麗斯發了一封信息給我

莎士比亞說:

再好的東西都有失去的一天

再深的記憶也有淡忘的一天

再愛的人也有遠走的一天

再美的夢也有甦醒的一天

該放棄的絕不挽留

該珍惜的絕不放手

分手後不可以做朋友,因為彼此傷害過.

但是也不可以做敵人,因為彼此深愛過.

是這樣的.

有人和我說:今天終於看到我笑了

怎麼,我很久沒笑了嗎?

我會慢慢好起來的.

用含著淚的微笑,慢慢沉澱.

那一切.

(OS:我不再哭了)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

擁有.

看到別人寫到'新年'的文章.

心裡總有一種心酸的感覺,不是對人,是對事.

不懂怎麼說,但是還會想關心任何關於你.

有人說忘不掉的記憶,就繞過去.

有故事,會活得更好.

我繞了過去,幾天後

發現是在這段記憶環繞,踟躕.

我不懂該怎麼辦了.

我必須強迫自己,早上起來第一個想到的不是你.

我還沒成功.

.

"這是報應"麗斯說的

沒錯,我認了.

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我沒辦法忘記.

那段刻骨銘心的記憶.

我們曾經天真,以為可以愛的簡單快樂,

以為可以愛得刻骨銘心

以為可以愛得不顧一切.

我們錯了.不,或許說,是客觀因素,

改變了我們.

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不懂這段故事,在你心中多重.

但我希望不是微不足道,

至少讓我感覺,我的存在你曾經很在意.

.

這不是擦身而過,

因為,我們有許多曾經.

滾燙的記憶,是我要懷念的.

翻騰的眼淚,是我要留下的

倔強的心痛,是我要痊癒的.

那時的愛你,是我要刻下的.

.

我不後悔曾經擁有過你,希望你也不是.=) 我存封了.

在那藍色的氣球.

.

(OS:自以為或許我們有一天會重疊,我可以再愛你第二遍.)

Monday, March 8, 2010

怎麼

我知道那是推開我的謊言

我知道那只是一秒的心動

我懂繼續安慰自己是愚蠢

我知道我的一切你已不要

我知道你的承諾容易泛黃

我知道你說過的都忘記了

我懂開始時你決定要愛誰

我知道可憐不能挽回甚麼

我知道你的理由假的脆弱

我知道我的眼淚也是白流

我知道你已經遠遠離開我

我知道你已經不想看到我

我知道你不想回憶關於我

我知道你心一直有另個他

我知道你也只是一時情感

我知道你愛我比餅乾脆弱

我知道那一切一切只是曾經.

於是,我想將那海枯石爛提前

於是,我想聽你的話專心學業

於是,我慢慢收散落一地的愛

於是,我聽見心它說它痛斃了

於是,我看見我們的曾經沉澱

於是,我儘量看不見你的東西

於是,我明天決定收起那些愛

於是,我拼命拼命拼命不愛你

於是,我累了. 發現,我還愛你=[

那怎麼辦?

亂寫

開始我的懶惰上課日.

昨天Joey 放我飛機... ...

下次要請我吃啊=[.

晚上和人聊天.突然斷線.只好選擇睡覺.

今天差點睡遲啊啊>.<

超Aimless的一天.至少有做完化學.

最後以emo結束.大唱<<連哭都是我的錯>>.

沒辦法. 短時間內走出情傷,比短時間內愛上一個人難.我做不到 :'(

早上起來.還是會有那種 <<鳥>> 感覺.

幾時才能擺脫.我不知道.

很想證明某些東西.不過只是我不捨得某些東西.<---我自己明白就好

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思伶用LG Lollipop.....唉唷...............

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後天考試了.讀書讀書讀書!!!

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我不懂你.我不懂你.我不懂你.!sik c sik c sik c!!

我很想你.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

我以为.

品冠 - 我以為

作詞：黃婷 / 作曲：品冠 / 編曲：伍冠諺

妳曾說不想有天讓我知道　妳對他　有那麼好

妳說會懂　我的失落　不是靠寬容　就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好　妳和他　正說要分開

我以為妳　己對他不再期待　不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口

專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白　他的心　已不在妳身上

我的關心　妳依然無動於衷　我的以為　只是我以為

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口

專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒

原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁

我以為我夠堅強　卻一天天的失望

少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口

專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒

原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁

我以為我夠堅強　卻輸得那麼絕望

少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

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(OS:DIU...damn suitable for my mood =(. )

Beach.

Let's see our Miss Gan. =)

While I was sleeping in afternoon.

I was suddenly awakened by Joy's call.

She invited us to go beach.

Drinking ABC, Eating Chicken Wings and Satay.

The most nasty things is all of our body are sticky with salt.

YUCKS!!

But we'd a fabulous time there.

We were shouting for unhappy.

Running for stress and Laughing randomly.

Then back.

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Boring with surfing internet for the whole day.

Keep SMS,MSN with friends.

I am sorry to hear about that unlucky incident.

Take care next time ya friend =].

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I went to GYM with Rina in the morning.

Surely with fully sweat. But the lunch after that got back all the lemak...

>.<

whatever.it's life.

Tonight I am going to have a date with Joey Wong.

Hope she wont forget.ciu...

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Exam is coming on Wednesday.

But i haven't touch any textbooks yet...

tomorrow lar i think.

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I hope i can forget you quickly.

Cause i dream about you daily.

I'm still looking for your sms.

The drop ornament is sitll there.

My heart is still beside you.In the corner of fairytales.

(os:I hope to sacrifice somethings to you.to prove I love you.do you want?)

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Monotonous life !

Shocked Face.ready to Cinema :D

An old movie we watched.

Alice,GanGan,Sheng,Joy,Whiskey and I.

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They are trying to help me walk out from anxiety.

I know it is hard.

After English Paper yesterday.we'd gossip around for another 9 periods.

and Last two period we watched The Tooth Fairy.

I felt asleep.xD. too monotonous.

I want to leave here :( Gan has same sensation with me.

After the movie.we went home.no second dating.[no more, no more, even with you]

I ate a lot of chocolate yesterday.to forget the sadness temporarily.

although i was going to vomit.

I hope I can found a little, a very little feeling.but failed.

The morning of 6/3.i was awakened by Esther's call.

OMG.I was sleep not enough.

Anyway, we were playing the Cyber-shot.

Act profesional. xP

The bear.I am still don't want to forget.